So I've had a very interesting and eventful past couple of weeks. Whoa! It feels like I had a crash course in Damie 101. This isn't necessarily a bad thing seeing as I'm at that point in my life where if I don't already know who I am, then I'll never know. It was a rude awakening to say the least, rude for myself and certain people in my life. On one episode I watched of those investigative criminal series, to figure out the nature/substance of an item, they had to burn it. I have been through the fire and I'm made from quite surprising stuff!
I was initially going to attempt writing a list of the things I have learned but I'm a bit too lazy for that. I know what they are in my heart of hearts and what I need is to be true to myself and who I am. My confidence in what I know combined with the grace of God building the right character in me assures me that I'll be okay and makes an otherwise scary and confusing phase more manageable.
The one thing I want to address though is the issue of friends. Once someone who had a lot of friends and was quite the extrovert. I find that I now have fewer words, am less likely to be in the middle of all the chaos and would rather be engaged in conversation with myself. Attributes that are ofcourse...(well maybe not "ofcourse") not conducive to maintaining friendships. The number of friends I maintain is less than 5 and I put less than appropraite effort into cultivating those relationships. Not because I don't love them but because in some cases I'd much rather be quiet, in some others, the chemistry just isn't there or I just am no longer the person I used to be, I have in a sense evolved out of the relationship.
The good book says "show me your friends and I'll tell you who you are", if I now have no friends, who am I? I guess in my case, the person I am could lie in the fact that my friends are dropping like flies. I realise that this could be a negative thing but of course, I'll keep praying and definately try to be the best I can as well as remembering to always do what Jesus would!
Jul 12, 2010
Jul 5, 2010
I Intend To Reach Out and Touch The Sky
~My Annotation of Nelson Mandela's poem...
“Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,
but that we are powerful beyond measure.”
I am not quite sure about these first lines. I think I do deal with feelings of inadequacy sometimes. I sometimes feel I could do better or be better. Wake up earlier, go to bed earlier, work harder, be smarter, and be nicer, less judgmental, more intuitive, more accountable…I could go on and on but I think the point is clear. So what did Mandela mean? I thought about it a little more and I think the fact that I am powerful beyond measure is more of a disappointment for me because I know I am nowhere near performing at my potential. I could be better.
“It is our light, not our darkness that frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?”
Yup! For sure! Is it really my portion to be special? Am I supposed to make a difference? Am I supposed to do anything extraordinary? Should I dream big AND go through with it? Should I take these big steps? What is my shoe size? Is it possible to blow myself out of proportion?
“Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.”
I SHOULD be my father’s daughter. I should let the magnitude of his glory shine through in me. Let the world see me and recognize who my father is.
"Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you."
Love it…
"We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone."
Haaaa…
"And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give
other people permission to do the same."
I’ve heard this said many times but for the first time it really comes home for me. I’ve been inspired by other people and their work has motivated me to do my thing.
"As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others."
These people have in essence empowered me, showed me that I could be more and push me to be more.
but that we are powerful beyond measure.”
I am not quite sure about these first lines. I think I do deal with feelings of inadequacy sometimes. I sometimes feel I could do better or be better. Wake up earlier, go to bed earlier, work harder, be smarter, and be nicer, less judgmental, more intuitive, more accountable…I could go on and on but I think the point is clear. So what did Mandela mean? I thought about it a little more and I think the fact that I am powerful beyond measure is more of a disappointment for me because I know I am nowhere near performing at my potential. I could be better.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?”
Yup! For sure! Is it really my portion to be special? Am I supposed to make a difference? Am I supposed to do anything extraordinary? Should I dream big AND go through with it? Should I take these big steps? What is my shoe size? Is it possible to blow myself out of proportion?
You are a child of God.”
I SHOULD be my father’s daughter. I should let the magnitude of his glory shine through in me. Let the world see me and recognize who my father is.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you."
It is not just in some; it is in everyone."
other people permission to do the same."
I’ve heard this said many times but for the first time it really comes home for me. I’ve been inspired by other people and their work has motivated me to do my thing.
our presence automatically liberates others."
These people have in essence empowered me, showed me that I could be more and push me to be more.
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