Here’s to easy living!

Who is this I have become? A year ago, my friends would have described me as an intellectual, always ready to argue, too philosophical, highly judgmental and more type of person. Not that I am no longer these things, but I think I have sort of evolved and I am not quite sure if I am wiser or not.

These days I find that I bite my tongue more often than I used to. I used to have a lot to say about everything but these days I hold back. Not that I don’t have a strong opinion, I just don’t see the need in engaging in complex exchanges about certain topics. I think the issue is I have fewer gray areas. I find these days that many things have become so black and white for me and knowing that people might not see it so black and white; I have decided not to engage them. Is this the lazy way out? Is it so black and white because I have become less intellectual? Or am I just tired of people telling me I love to argue when really, I just enjoy stimulating conversation?

I find that these days I’m more interested in laughter. I find that I’d much rather engage in light hearted conversation that lifts my spirits and makes me want to fly. While I would like people to see me as an intellectual, I’d rather be a fun person to converse with. Not that I don’t want to exercise my mind, and explore theories at high intellectual levels, I just feel at this point, my mind is made up about certain things. I use God as the focal point for all my decision which eliminates many gray areas. In addition, it seems most people are not as complex minded as I am so it’s usually one-sided which of course is no fun.

There is one exception though, and I think knowing there is this exception allows me to resign myself to this person I have become without any guilt. Any day, any time, I will engage in complex conversations about God…not just religion in general but specifically about the Christian life and what it means to be Christ-like. I really love these conversations and thankfully they are the only ones that really matter.

I’m also more interested in discussing culture, food, places, and hobbies.